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I don’t need your credit cards
Your house in the hills
Or your empty promises
Just bill me
Remember no matter how hard you try
You still can’t skill me
Hold me responsible
For my actions
When I’m crunk
You will never ever buy me
Cause you couldn’t afford me
Stuck
Fucked up
Call me a whore
Call me a whore cause you can never
Own me
Not a wild horse to be broken
Don’t be mistaken
You have no power over me
Underestimate
Cloudy with a chance of rain
Just pretend you are smarter than me
For a second maybe you could be
But your not
Cause your weak
Mind your business
I found your weakness
Sure as I get my justice
I am the princess
Bound to my vows
Upset that I’m so sick wit it
Sorry you’ll never hit it
Just get over me
I’m out the door
Faster than your eyes can adjust
So shut them again
Do a double take
Cause it’s the last time you’ll ever see me
Your so lame
Sooooo lame…
Fuck you and fuck me
We’re both fucked.

I Love My Paramore (The Only Exception by Paramore)


When I was younger
I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart
And I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I’d never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darlin,
You, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable, distance
And up until now
I’d sworn to myself that I’m content
With loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk, but

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I’ve got a tight grip on reality
But I can’t let go of what’s in front of me here
I know your leaving in the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it’s not a dream

Oh

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I’m on my way to believing.
Oh, and I’m on my way to believing.

The Risk


I was drawn to him at first glance
A touch a smell a taste a dance
Yes I was scared to take the chance
Though incredibly enveloped in a trance
Feeling a heightened awareness
As my lips pressed against his
Strong hands caressing my soft skin
So there I was yet again
Falling down the same hole
Loosing all intellect and control
Trapped in a daydream
Never as real as it may seem
Left alone to ponder my mistake
In allowing my heart to break
Just one more time was all it took
As he left me without even a second look.

Well Now


I’m getting my divorce finally!!! I filed my papers on the 7th of July! Those of you that thought I was to weak to go through with it Fuck You, those of you who believed in me I love you, and to my husband and his homewrecking bitch hope you’re happy but if not you made your bed now lie in it….cause I will NEVER again have anything to do with you.


I miss those blue eyes

How you kiss me at night

I miss the way we sleep

Like there’s no sunrise

Like the taste of your smile

I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in

And now,

I miss everything about you

Can’t believe that I still want you

After all the things we’ve been through

I miss everything about you

Without you

I see your blue eyes

Every time I close mine

You make it hard to see

Where I belong to

When I’m not around you

It’s like I’m not with me

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you I just held it in

And now

I miss everything about you

Can’t believe that I still want you

And after all the things we’ve been through

I miss everything about you

Without you

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in

And now

I miss everything about you

Can’t believe that I still want you

After all the things we’ve been through

I miss everything about you

Without you.

Brilliant


If only my heart could absorb the warmth of the sun

It would never be cold and empty again

Forever longing for something

My eyes will never see

Left here to never believe

Count my blessings and still grieve

Day by agonizing day

Making my adamant yet crooked way

Zig zagging from point A to B

Crying and pleading if you could only see

The future could have been brighter for you and me

If only things had worked out differently.

Still Here Waiting


Here I sit yet again

With this fire burning in my chest

A lingering pain

That will never go away

Living with it day by day

I can only lessen the strength

Of my memories

But they can never be taken away

Only sharpened corners can be re shapen

That doesn’t mean I have given in

Haven’t given up

On what might have been

Could possibly be

Would of should of could of

Is no longer in my vocabulary

With no lingering possibilities

It was time I set you free

Even though I wasn’t ready

I knew I would never be

That it wouldn’t be easy

Wasn’t ready for this fight

Wasn’t ready for you

The wound I can never heal

Nor would I want to

BecauseĀ  the pain and what I have learned

Is the only reminder it was real

Knowing the outcome isn’t worth a thing

Unless it was an uphill battle from the beginning

Which makes it worth risking everything

At least it is to me

Can’t leave it buried inside anymore

Wanting to trust you

Still ironically unsure

Craving the very thing

That is slowly destroying me.

Maybe Tommorrow


When we were still young you made a promise to me

One that you had every intention to keep

As the time lingered on though

We fell into a deep sleep

Seeming more and more everyday

Like the remains of a blurry dream

You somehow let go of my tiny hand

The hand that is still left wanting

If only for a small reminder

Of what used to be

Forced to remember what I try to forget

It was not a fantasy

Waiting for you to fulfill the unhealthy expectations

That could never be obtained in the first place

Hope that you would heal my broken heart

Travel back to that day and make a new start

A different decision on a narrow path

Avoiding the bloody aftermath

Of the little girl that you used to know

Who has grown into the woman I am now.

Silent Night


The silent night of goodbye’s

Is as shallow as that look in your eyes

As empty as your heartfelt apologies

Left alone while you brought me to my knees

I could never live up to your idea of me

A standard of which you wouldn’t set free

Posed upon the pedestal high

Though never a reality living a lie

Trying to give you everything and more

While you call me a stupid fat ugly whore

All the warning signs I chose to ignore

Gave myself up and what was I fighting for?

Now that we have let each other go it’s a shame

But in the end it will always be us with the burden of blame.